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January 1st, 2010

Hey guys,

Wow, that felt weird writing ‘2010’. But I’ll get used to it like every other year. Anyway, considering I haven’t blogged recently here goes. I don’t know where to start really. I had a crap ‘2009’ year until the middle of December when I met someone COMPLETELY amazing… I didn’t actually know I could feel like that. Who cares if he’s older than me? Everything just seems so ironic. Even to the smallest detail as my necklace and my dream career. He’s everything I could actually want if I’m honest. Even if he does live over seas, hopefully see we’ll be able to meet. We always have a laugh and a joke about how we’d run off together and stuffs and go into the same career as each other. It sounds sooo stupid now I’ve wrote it down, but it makes me happy. Very happy. “Kermit the frog” I adore it when he says that. Makes me smile EVERYTIME. 😀 Ahhh, and then when he was tipsy and was saying such cute things. Waking up to a inbox message is the best. Especially when it says “You’re beautiful.” It just makes me smile and feel all warm inside, and then I get butterflies. 🙂 Even though things could get very complicated, I’m willing to take that risk. But who knows, it’s either fate or it isn’t, and because it’s a new year, i’m happy to let fate take it’s course. I’m not going to worry. Moving on from him, last night was amazing. Having a friend round, to get drunk, play on the Wii, then pass out. I was shocked at the amount of bottles lined up on my window sill when i woke up.  But still, I had great fun. Managed to find some white paint which between you and me looked like… cum.. but anyhow.. i managed to smeer it onto his face whilst he was passed out. He yelled at me when he woke up.. but i took a picture just in time. But i can tell ya, when I woke up… I felt rough, although i haven’t puked yet.. and i dont think i will. Alls good. Ahh bye all!

December 14th, 2009

Hey there.
So I’ve had a rocky couple of months and I just hope sometime soon they’ll flatten out.. and I’m hoping this comes with the new year and I hope I’ll be reunited with my Mom too.

Right now I am just majorly confused on a lot of levels. Exams, guys, friends, family, etc. Exams I’ve just completely failed. Well, not completely failed but haven’t achieved the grades I want/need. For the moment.. I feel I may not be able to achieve my dream job that I have worked towards since I was young enough to know what the ocean was. As for guys, I just don’t know. I’m still in love with someone who I was with 3 years ago. (In April.) We had everything in common. We went to concerts together, bullied each other, babysitting together, laughed together, smiled together, sang together, did everything together. I miss that… I just miss the cuddles, the hugs, the kisses… I just miss him in general. But moving on. Friends.. well, they couldn’t really care less I guess apart from a select few who I absolutely adore! My family could not have been better. I love them to pieces, especially my mom. I actually don’t know what I would do without her. She means so much to me, and has helped me through so much just by talking to me on the phone. I miss you mom 😦

We’ll see what christmas brings I guess. I just hope things get better 🙂

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